Is it normal for someone to feel hatred, sadness, confusion and yet love all at the same time? It’s recently hit me that there are most definitely certain situations that cause for what you are feeling at the time to overtake your cardinal, placed emotions. One moment you are fascinated and attached to a particular person or situation and then when something changes, your initial reaction can get the better of you and you tend to quickly drop the positive energy you once had for the situation. And for the longest time I thought that was the only and yet the most normal outcome. But most recently I’ve realized that it’s harder to suppress those primary emotions.
Once you settle into a situation, especially when it deals with a person, it’s easy to get caught up in the moment. It’s easy to forget that one day the comfort and familiarity of that person or circumstance can easily change. So when it comes to that moment when the peachy-keenness leaves the building people tend to be conflicted with what stance they are suppose to take. The love and happiness that you once felt seems to take the forefront and the anger and misery you briefly felt is pushed to the back burner. Although you may have moved on from the ill moment, unconsciously you still feel those negative emotions. And if for any reason a repeat of confliction appears, you will natural have those negative feelings, but it’s not uncommon for you to relapse again…
Why does this happen? Why when you KNOW something or someone isn’t necessarily good for you it’s so hard to move on? The only answer I can conjure is that most humans have a problem letting go of a good thing. If at one point in time something was positive why couldn’t it return to that state? People trend to use the excuse that everything/everyone goes through trials and tribulations, but even with all problems they are outweighed with the positive that at one point of time was present.
Much more pondering on this is needed. Until then, I don’t know maybe “she wants that old thing back...”